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I am having this horrible fibromyalgia flare and I keep vacillating between walking around trying to act like everything is fine and just wanting to let my body fall onto the ground because holding it up is hurting so badly. I am so tired of being tired. This is not really how I wanted to see out NaBloPoMo. I feel like I can't do anything that needs to be done and things keep on needing to be done and I keep doing them.
I look like I have suddenly decided it would it would be fun to dress up as a zombie for a mid-winter Halloween. And parent-teacher conferences start tomorrow so I have all this data I am supposed to compile and various notes to type. I am not even sure if I remember how to speak or write in English.
I am not, right now, finding this funny. (Except for the zombie guy.)
My mom has fibromyalgia. She's had it for as long as I can remember. It's so miserable for her, and it can incapacitate her for two or three days at a time.
ReplyDeleteI'm really sorry you're going through this, too. Hope you feel better soon! xo
Thanks. Everyone keeps telling me it is just a question of finding the combination of approaches that will work for me and to keep trying. I appreciate the love. xo
DeleteI have fibromyalgia. My doctor prescribed loads of pain killers, but I refused to take them. He then recommended I no longer exercise, but I did not listen because it makes me feel good mentally and emotionally, but physically...I can't begin to describe the pain I feel.
ReplyDeleteWhy do so many awesome writers have these kinds of conditions? Is excellent writing skill co-morbid with chronic pain conditions? I am so, so sorry that you have this too. It is something I wish we did not have to have in common, although I am otherwise thrilled to have things in common with you. My doctor, conversely, has only just now put me on a pain treatment (non-narcotic) after all this time and has been begging me to resume exercising. I am a wuss about exercising while feeling terrible pain and exhaustion. I used to run, before all this happened. And then, when it was better for a while, I ran again. I worked back up to running a 5k. It was so much work to do that without pushing myself to exhaustion. And then I got an unexplained hepatitis and was so weak I could hardly walk up the stairs and had to stop completely. Etc. Etc. The conundrum is regular exercise makes fibromyalgia better, but any particular instance of exercise right now makes me feel so awful I have to go lie down instead of take care of my kids...Fuck fibromyalgia.
DeleteJust discovered you through TangledLou's site. Love your writing and am a new subscriber:)
ReplyDeleteYay! Lovely to meet you.
DeleteI'm so sorry that you are unwell. But I love your blog because the first post I read by you had a zombie in it. So I'm feeling conflicted: sad that you're sick, happy that there's a zombie. I hope that tomorrow is a better day.
ReplyDeleteThat's totally OK. I try very hard to stay amusing so my great hope is that people will giggle at zombies even when I feel like crap. That is sort of my plan for staying sane.
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